beat #5 - jasmine (Friday, February 24, 2012 / 9:46 PM)
i am frustrated and a little stressed.
sometimes you reach a point, where you realize just how alone the struggle can be,
in the work part of life.
i am sitting here, after a phenomenal reading week,
reeling from the many different things i have encountered that have been wonderful,
but also overwhelmed by the many things i have to process and figure out for the future.
arts ministry
world vision
summer jobs
rent
course loads
gpa
scholarships
relationships
family
health
just a short list of the many things that are on my mind at the moment,
a short list of all the issues clamoring for my attention, demanding that i do something, solve something, fix something, gain something.
the noise in my head can be remarkably overwhelming,
and it renders me immobile, because the feverish activity of my brain shuts down all physical ability.
so i hit the next cycle of the rhythm,
because that is all i know how to do:
rest.
God, you are driving me to my knees aren't you?
i will. i will. i will sit and be quiet, i will cry out and then i will listen.
grace,
i need a lot of it.