what #6 (Wednesday, March 14, 2012 / 7:17 PM)
I've been working on a few projects at once. It's a bit overwhelming... But it's partly my fault for not skipping those 20 minute breaks of random walking around my house..and this is part of that break. =]
- I just completed a project today, hand it tomorrow > 63 pages of colours palettes and product design
- Web design - friday
- prep ccf bible study - friday
- Marketing assignment - sunday night
- D+C names for projection - sunday
- practice for good friday choir - sunday
- Music paper - monday
- Multimedia advertisement - monday
- Marketing paper - tuesday
- Colour theory paper - wednesday
- keep Mass Ex website updated (blog) - every friday
it's a lot. and it repeats again the week after.
but the miracle is, I only get the anxiety/panic for a couple seconds. well it comes back when people ask me what i have to do this week. Well i'm panicking because i'm thinking of how to phrase my to-do list to you so you'd understand. Not because i'm worried i won't finish. because i have to finish, its not a choice.
maybe this is part of His grace? If i get stressed i cry. and crying wastes valuable working time. so in order to get things done quickly, i don't get stressed or anxious. I'll get it when i physically can not be siting down and working.
That said, this week i had to turn down a dinner meeting with a good friend. I said to her before that God gives me time, and I'll have time for dinner if i work hard and effectively throughout the week.
that didn't happen and i feel really bad for turning her down. But if i didn't, I won't be sleeping for a while.
That's why i'm writing it here. because i need Him to tell me its ok. maybe it's not? i don't know. But i'm trying..
trying to understand what i am doing wrong?
why don't i have time for dinner?!
