beat #16 - jasmine (Saturday, October 20, 2012 / 11:48 AM)
in a piece of music, the most haunting moment is the big pause between notes, at the height of a turn in the story, or a shift in emotion.
it is the perfectly executed stop and start that people remember, because in the light of noise, a sudden expanse of quiet is unforgettable.
so it is with the rhythm of grace in my life.
rest is a breath of silence some days, when my rhythm is at a jog,
rest can be a pant of air on other days, when i am at a full out sprint.
but today rest for me is a quiet river, and on it i sit in a little boat,
floating down the middle of a quiet that i did not create, but find myself in.
today rest is a long, extended silence come back to find a friend,
and her arms extend to wrap around my heart in a warm and gentle communion.
today's beat is the absence of a beat, between beats.
back to the flat line, between the spikes of a heartbeat.
back to the pause, between the exhale of a breath.
back to the look, between the words to be spoken.
here i find the greatest rest.
and it is so beautiful i find myself in tears,
salty tears laced with a bitterness,
mourning for those that have been looking
and cannot find.
it is quiet here.
it can be lonely here.
but here i find myself most at home.
and here i find the voice of God, welcoming me into his presence.